You know it's funny, no matter how ugly you are, how dumb you are, how shitty things are around you, while having sex, you know, no matter what, you're doing exactly what everybody else wants to be doing. There is that feeling that things just may be alright.

To segue, that's the feeling you get as filmmaker when you watch your completed film. This is of course before it is sent out to the critics, before your your sitting with a live audience and listening for every thing that emanates from them, whether it be a laugh, a sigh, a rustle.

Then if the critics hail you, the audience loves you, well then, that's an orgy baby, that's when you not only glow from thinking things are alright, but are in simple disbelief of how you got into this room....then you get kicked out, the next night the crowd has totally changed....